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100 Things To Do Before 2010

I started this list of things to do before I turn 30. I'm now 31 and I still haven't done everything on my list. I'm revisiting this list and setting another deadline - my 33rd birthday on 10.10.2010.

So here is my partial list of 100 Things to Do before 2010 (the highlighted ones have been accomplished):

• learn basic French (I've always wanted to do this)
• buy a digital camera
• learn photography
• buy a laptop
• set up my own business
• travel to Cebu
• write my Mission statement
• go diving
• learn to surf
• learn to appreciate classical music
• learn about Italy
• learn about art
• visit a museum
• spend more than P30,000 in one day
• go to Batanes
• travel alone
• go on a roadtrip
• spend a day doing something absolutely selfless
• read Catcher in the Rye
• save P100,000
• go to Boracay
• buy a really nice dress for no reason
• drink wine on the beach and make a toast to the sunset
• stay at a cafe all day long doing nothing but read and listen to music
• buy myself a stuffed toy
  
• have a horribly expensive dinner for no reason at all
• buy myself flowers
• go to a karaoke place and sing my lungs out
• read The Alchemist (I can't seem to finish an entire book by Paulo Coelho)
• apply for my MBA
• redecorate my room
• have my picture taken with a celebrity
• be debt free
• have a pizza delivered to the house
• meet Piolo Pascual (haha)
• take boxing lessons
• gamble
• contribute an article or have my 'letter to the editor' published in a magazine
• get up early enough to have breakfast at a coffeeshop before work
• attend a poetry reading
• buy a lottery ticket
• read a Newberry Prize winner
• consult a fortune teller
• read Moby Dick
• go to Sagada
• be able to wear a bikini and look good doing it
• attend a creativity workshop

Be Inspired

Thinking of You

So Many Questions So Little Time

How many "love of my life"s do we get? Is there only one? What if the time wasn't right? Or you just weren't ready? If that doesn't work out does it mean anyone else after that is just a form of settling? What if the next person doesn't make you feel "love of my life-y"? Do you dump them and then hope that another "love of your life" will show up? What if they don't?
What if you have someone now who means the world to you and is someone you see yourself loving the rest of your life but you just don't feel as passionate about as you did with the "love of your life"? Is that settling? What if you're engaged and then meet someone who makes you feel all giddy inside? Do you leave your betrothed and love the other person? Do you risk it all? Or play 'safe'?
What if someone proposes to you and you're just not sure? What if you know that this is a great person but maybe not "the one"? What if you get engaged for practical reasons? You know you'll be happy with them but is that enough? Is it really happiness? Is it soul destroying true love?

After all these questions, how does one stay a romantic?

Reminders of Days Gone By

I was pleasantly surprised to discover that Starbucks now has Chocolate Lamingtons. It was like meeting an old friend whom you thought you'd never find again. I miss the old days but things like this remind you that the memory of yesterday will stick to you forever.

That Giddy Feeling

For some time now I've missed feeling all giddy inside. I ended my week really nicely last week with a few moments of giddiness. It didn't turn out the way I wished it did but I'm still grateful for remembering how it feels to not being able to wipe that silly grin off my face even if it was just for a day.

You may not know who you are, but thank you all the same.

The Rat Race

Driving home the other day I realized that it was one of those rare occasions where I was going home early. I realized that it was too beautiful a day to be wasting stuck in a car in the middle of traffic. I just wanted to sit under a tree and enjoy the breeze. It got me thinking about why we run ourselves ragged trying to keep up in this rat race. Why do we do it all? Stay in the office till very late and stress ourselves out working (sometimes for people we don't even like) till one day we don't recognize the people we've become. Why do we run this race every single day when the reward may just be right in front of us, under a tree in the cool breeze?

Love Songs

I just heard a song that reminded me of an ex. It made me smile despite missing him all over again. I guess that's one of the nice things about heartbreak, that once you've gotten numb from all the pain and after a huge amount of time and distance from the relationship, you can actually go back to when it all started and remember the good things with a smile.

Little Reminders

This reminded me of a field of sunflowers and in that moment I just wanted to escape into that field and walk amongst the flowers.

I will not take these things for granted

I had lunch with a friend and his wife today. I don't know if either of them noticed but he opened her bottle of mineral water for her. It's these simple little things that I miss the most about being in a committed relationship, and usually the things we take for granted when we are in one.

I write this now so that in the future I won't forget.